9-11 twelve years later

So hard to believe its been twelve years. This year 9-11's anniversary has a much heavier affect on my heart than ever before as a new wife to a wonderful man in the US Army Infantry. I'm so thankful for the sacrifice of all the soldiers that work and fight for our country out of the goodness of their souls before and after the fateful 9-11. And to the soldiers'  wives and families. THANK YOU! Thank you for moving away from your family to support your husband in this ever honorable career. Thank you for going through lonely weeks and months in new surroundings. Thank you for all your sleepless nights alone not knowing where he is or if he is safe, if he got to eat dinner, or if he slept today. Thank you for taking care of your babies while he is gone and telling them that daddy will be home soon. Thank you for joining the service when you said "I do". It's the toughest job in the world, lean on Jesus so that your soldier can lean on you when he can't stand. Those in camo and combat boots are undoubtedly heroes, but also those who pick up after the boots.  

Moving away from you girls has been the hardest thing I have ever done. Without a doubt. It's been hard on my heart, I've gone through a couple months of being depressed. I cry all the time. And its in turn been hard on Bradley and I. You know how grossly adorable we were before we got hitched. It's been really hard on us since we've been here because I've been in such a slump and gained weight and instead of talking to him I've begun to just resent him for missing you all and so anything will set me off and start a fight blah blah blah. Anyway, I've just been so much more appreciative to all the wives in the service because I know I'm not the only one. And... I'm one of the strong ones! Ugh. It's hard. But I've really had to readjust how I lean on Jesus and not on Bradley to give me a good or bad day. And Bradley and I have hashed out and really gotten down to the root of why we've been at each others throats and not all lovey dovey and of course bradley was super gracious. I can't tell you the 180 we've done. It's been awesome. Not to say Helga doesn't still pay her visits (cause she does) but our attitudes toward each other has gone back to normal- it's been awesome :) we're gross again ;)

Ok I'm babbling. Love you girls.